So mixed up

This recent tragedy is not the only thing making me upset.  We are having financial issues again.  Also I do not see Ricky much as he is working over night.  I feel like the trials just keep coming.  I do not know what to pray for anymore.  I feel so let down that I am almost afraid to pray for anything.  I still do pray but I have this bad attitude of "whats the point".  I need to somehow get past this.  Otherwise the enemy wins.  I do not want to continue down this road.