Sunday, August 24, 2008

Mission Statement?

I was just reading my mission statement on the front page. It seems like very few of my posts even are related to what I originally intended. I started this thinking I would spread the Good News, do inspirational quotes and teach the Bible. Well I am so off base. I still mean what I said but God has put challenges in my way to pursue that. So people may not get inspired on the spot but there is something to be said about faith in God even when the chips are down.

Work still is a challenge. I start my shift in a week. I am still sad about having to work every Sunday and having my music taken away. Lets not forget a certain manager who likes to bug me 6 times in the course of 3 hours. The manager is just doing his job. However his approach to things intimidates me to a stuttering mess. He was asking me questions that I could not answer right away. I finally told him that he made me nervous. Maybe that was not smart but its true. This person is a "just the facts" person. That is good because you know there aren't hidden meetings but it makes me uncomfortable. Plus some of my coworkers are in their own clique that they don't realize I am here. I guess I am at work to do my job and nothing else. But what a waste. An unpleasant work environment is not conducive to motivation or focus. But what do I know I am just a worker. If I don't like it I can leave. At least that's what my charming boss says.

Sarah and Rob came to town. Rob had a seizure over three weeks ago. He just got out of the Navy in June. People are saying the seizure is connected to his time when he was in Iraq. He is in the DFW area to get checked out by the local VA hospital due to his veteran status. I have had him in prayer. The seizure scared Sarah because it causes memories of how her husband departed. Yeah...that's scary. It was fun having them here. I had to work the whole time and there is no such thing as getting coverage. My coworkers hate working nights. I missed the zoo and other good times. It blows. Sigh.

Ricky and I go back to the doctor on Thursday. We probably will have better results. That's a relief. I am so glad. Its time this problem gets nipped in the bud. There is absolutely no reason why we should even be in our 6th month with no results.

Meri broke up with Nick. I just want to throw my hands up at this. In my opinion I think she should leave guys alone for awhile. She wanted to be with someone else. This guy seems to be a good person. I don't know how to feel anymore because it seems like she is jumping from guy to guy and not wanting to rely on her own inner strengths. She somehow thinks that a guy would make everything so much better. This is a major prayer concern. I know because I did that for awhile myself. Guy hopping is no fun. It certainly does not help your self esteem any. Even if you are not intimate with the person it still gives that feeling of temporary. When she told me her and Nick split, all I could feel was sadness. Its a good thing so Nick can grow up and get straight but its a bad thing because it was a waste. Stuff happens for a reason but I really think all of us could save ourselves misery just by thinking through decisions before jumping face first. I know I would be in a different phase in life to this day.

Jeff Day continues to be on my prayer list. Lisa is recovering quite nicely. Her leg is almost healed. Elaine is doing okay as well. I will get an update on her later when I talk to him again this week. Jeff has had it rough though. He had a bulging disk in his back. He also was diagnosed with arthritis and degenerative bone disease. His back has been in constant pain. I only know Jeff by phone but the Lord has laid him on my heart to pray for him. Jeff is a sweetheart and cares for his listeners. I don't like to hear him suffer. He is always so nice when I call the station too. He is a true servant of the Lord. He lives God's word and conveys it in his work at KCBI. Rob Rion has gotten more sleep. He knows I will get on to him if he does not. We still keep in touch. I don't call every day just because I am so tied up with the fun job at Sprint but I keep him posted with Ricky's condition. He actually asked me to. Scott Broyles and I have been writing via myspace. He and his wife Sarah are in prayer because of a difficult pregnancy. Sarah has been rushed to the hospital 3 times in the past few weeks. Her pregnancy has had some complications. She is almost bedridden because if she is active the contractions start and hurt her. I continue to pray for all of these wonderful people. I am volunteering in the Shareathon at KCBI to keep the station alive. With it being listener supported it only runs on donations and business underwriting. I am glad to be a part of that.

My mother is not doing well. Yet I continue to feel detached. It bothers me that I am not crying at her bedside or sad about her at all. We did not grow up together and do not have a bond. Not sure how to feel here. I do pray for her because I don't know where her eternal resting place is. I don't know if she has a relationship with God or not.

A fun thing happened today. We went to an ice cream freeze off. BIG mistake. : ) We got try lots of different flavors and vote on them. Then we got to get a bowl afterwords of our favorites. Wow people really know their stuff. My favorite was a pineapple cake flavor. It won second place in most original. One flavor I would not recommend was the Crazy Cravings. It had pickles in it. Lets just say that was.......interesting. Needless to say that was not my bowl. I probably gained 2 dress sizes this afternoon. That's how good most of the ice cream was. Wes is nice but his Crazy Cravings flavor was not. Sorry! Better luck next year Wes!

More to come as things develop. I will keep updating. I am trying to shift away from negativity. Pray for a more positive outlook next time.

Heavenly Father I thank You for friends and family. I pray that You be with Rob as he goes to the doctor tomorrow. That they will find whats wrong with him so he can move on. He does not like this handicap but I know Your will is being done. I ask for Your healing hand on Jeff. He is Your faithful servant and wonderful person. Wrap Your arms around him and bring him comfort during this time. I pray for a safe pregnancy for Sarah. Show her Your love and grace. I continue to ask for prayers for Ricky. I know Your hand is in us moving to another doctor and We thank You for that. We ask these all in the name of Your precious Son Jesus

1 comment:

Maria and Paul said...

I decided to read your blog before asking you on myspace how you are doing. I know it's tough, it's tough on our end too. A lot of times it feels that even when good things happen, it's not enough to help us on our feet. I'm weary and trying to stay positive too. Read my latest blog (it's a riot). I'm still actively praying for Ricky and for you guys. I'm telling you the truth: If we won the lottery (lol if we PLAYED the lottery) you guys are the first people on my mind. I know how the agony wears on you. Try to get refreshed with as much of God's presence as possible, even if it means a Saturday service.